Tada!!

Soundtrack

I often wonder if I could have a soundtrack for everyday life what would be on it and if I did have a soundtrack would I be aware of it. Is it possible that my life has a soundtrack that I don’t even know about? Maybe! Man I tell you I would have an odd soundtrack if I actually took time to plan one out. I have so many music moods that I feel like I would need more than one soundtrack. Each year I suppose would come with its own songs. Like I’m sure back when I was in middle school it would have had a few Backstreet Boys songs on there but I’m sure they wouldn’t be on this year’s soundtrack. There is my summer I spent in Portland. I’m sure Maria Carey would be on that one. Oh the joy. I love music. I guess I should walk around with a small mp3 player or something and have music playing as I go. That would make life interesting. I wonder how many looks I would get then. I could pick some funeral dirge for class or a horror montage for the dining room. That would be fun. To bad I’m not that odd. Well some might disagree but oh well. So my fairy tale ending… That is what I’m supposedly doing right now. Here goes… And she lived happily ever after. The End. So makes it so happy. I don’t know I haven’t quite gotten there yet. This is a bit random I know but sometimes after I watch a movie of a certain genre I get into a sort of whimsical mood. I have all this emotion that I would like to share with people but it always seems that no one is around at the time so I am stuck writing things down that no one reads or that I don’t even put so people can read them. Hmm Life is crazy. Ok I’m tired now I will stop. Toodles!!

WOW Moment

Have you ever had a wow moment? A wow moment is a moment in which God reveals to you something that you may never have known, forgotten, or still know just need to be reminded. So you can have a wow moment anywhere with anything. My wow moment for today happened when I was drying my hair. You can ask almost anyone and they will probably tell you that I quite enjoy myself. I think that I am an amazing creation. Now don't go thinking that I'm full of myself. I think that I am an amazing creation because my God created me and anything He creates is amazing. Most days I am pretty pleased with myself. There are days when I'm not but the good days far out weigh the bad. Today is a good day. As I was drying my hair I wasn't thinking about my looks because it didn't really matter at the moment. I was ok with what I looked like. I turned away to talk to my roomie for a moment and when I looked back into the mirror.... WOW! I was looking at myself in a whole new light. I felt as if I were seeing myself through God's eyes. He should me myself as His child, His bride, His beautiful woman. I felt His heart fill with joy as He gazed on me. As His heart was filling with joy, my heart was being filled with love so that it over flowed. My God loves me and He shows me all the time. He will show you how He sees you if you ask Him to. I'm positive that the picture you get will blow your mind. Taste and See that the Lord is GOOD!!

Camp

So I went to church tonight... I haven't been to this particular church in awhile. Mainly because it isn't the Salvation Army and that is my church. OK so here it is I needed to go to church tonight I needed that. I'm not to totally out of it to know when I need something. Ok so maybe it wasn't that I needed to go to church so much as it was I needed to be with God. You know the song... I was sinking deep in sin far from the peaceful shore... well that is were I feel right now. Anyway God knew why it was he laid it on my heart to go to Asbury Methodist Church tonight and he knew I needed to come in late. While I love the church members he knew I needed to sort of slip in unnoticed or as unnoticed as you can when there are maybe fifteen people in the church. Anywho. I'm there and I'm just listening to them sing and I just feel Jesus. Not just in the room but all around me, in me beside me. He was there talking to me, ministering to me, loving me, forgiving me. It was something I needed that I wouldn't accept before. After the singing the preacher got up. I think is name is John matter of fact I do believe it is John. He is the son of the "top" preacher. I don't know I think he might take over when the "top" preacher steps down or steps up. if you know what I mean. Who knows though anyway that whole preacher family is really cool. The dad (older fellow good guy) is the "top" guy then one son does the sunday night preach and the other son does the music (praise and worship) man I have to say if all the angels sound like him I want to go to heaven and just sit and listen for days. anywho getting back to the reason for this. So John was talking about the armor of God. OK so I got stopped right there. I've been getting attacked and knocked to the ground alot lately but it could have something to do with the fact that I don't but on the full armor of God. That was a me moment number one. Ok me moment number two. He then took us to Deuteronomy 23 I believe something like that. Anywho the verse was saying that God was moving in their camp and that they need to be holy so that he can continue to stay there and he can continue to protect them and hand their enemies over to them. OK there we are. My camp has been invaded and I'm to blame. I didn't do my part of keeping it holy. I keep trying to get into the world and fit in that way when I'm not called to fit in I'm called to be set apart. Example. I knew I was going to go to Asbury tonight so naturally I have to find something that makes me look like I'm doing alright for myself (trying to impress) then I think oh I'll wear this lip gloss that my step mom gave me for christmas then i was like uhhh while it is pretty I don't wear make up why start now. See I was trying to become the world. So Johns message for me was I need to put on the Armor and take back my Camp and set it apart. God wants to walk in my camp and I want to let him because I've tried to succeed on my own and I've crashed and burned. 

God I want you to once again walk in my camp. Yes I'm ready to accept your forgiveness knowing that I can't earn it you just give it. I'm not worthy but you are worth only the best and that is what I want to give to you. Lord I offer myself as a living sacrifice from this day forward holy and pleasing to you. Knowing that this is my spiritual act of worship. Set me apart Lord and teach me how to put your armor on everyday so that I can stand firm in the truth that you so graciously opened my eyes to. Thank you that you know me and you love me and that your plans are better than mine. I LOVE YOU! Amen

Oh to the enemy..... Give me my stuff back. Everything you stole I want it all back. You may have plundered my camp but My God is bigger than you I will get it back. Devil if you only knew what I was gonna be after the storm you wouldn't have bothered me. Greater is HE who is in me than anything you could ever hope to be.

Love to all my family out there blood and not. Take courage in the fact that the Battle is the Lord's.